Honey & Self-Service Checkout

Pouring forth from nights alone one the edge of sleep come my first attempts at poetry (be kind guys)

Dear followers,

I have been a creative writer since I was rather small. But I am only owning that title now. I have tried to work and finish many projects over the years and never really succeeded. I am currently pushing myself to finish a large project and I have connected with some amazing people in Brighton who are inspiring me to do so. I also finally feel (semi) confident enough to start putting some poetry out there. I never thought I could exist in the world of poetry but my beloved friend pushed me and now I am here asking you to support me in my next step as a creative.

She also pointed out that I need to stop working for free (after admonishing me many times for taking non-paid work or not chasing up payment, love you Katie). And as I put more of my creative writing into the world I would like to ‘step into my power’ as someone close to me has told me to do a few times. That is why I am going to be putting a small paywall on any creative pieces I post from now on by giving you the chance to become a paid subscriber, aren’t you lucky. My usual articles will be sent to you as accessible as ever as I want you to be able to join me in my musing so there is no pressure to become a paid subscriber. These articles are a space for me to learn from you as much as for me to share my thoughts. The creative content is the next step for me in my journey and I hope you can join me. The subscription cost is starting low because I want my work to be open to everyone. You have the option to subscribe monthly, yearly or to be become a foundation subscriber. You will have access to all my creative content. future mini-podcasts and videos. All subscribers will be sent tasters of this work every known and then just to see if something might interest you.

Thank you for staying with me so far. Through everything this has been a wonderful space for me to grow. And who knows what happens next!

With hope,

Ivonne and Skadu the cat

Honey

You asked when I last felt happy

I had made the mistake of speaking of the lightness and clarity of that rare moment that came to me once

but I could not cross that boundary with you.

The last time I felt that lightness it started with you but it was not happiness.

I only licked the tips of fingers dripping in happiness - I sense that that is where our love lies on the edge of its reality -

Yet in those moments of reckless crossing that rippled from those five fingers imprinted on my skin I was led to a burning golden glow that calls for the purple patterns of those honeyed tips again and again.

You asked when last I was happy

I think my answer was honest - I cannot be happy in love with you

But I will let it touch me when you are in me.